Day 66: What do I even like to do.

We're all going to die (and I'm not even talking about Brexit!)

It seems important to be able to answer the question: What do I love to do with my time?

We've all filled out online profiles and dating profiles and other profiles that asked us those questions, and mostly we put aspirational things. I like to hike and save children while cooking five course meals! I like a lot of things but I don't actually spend that much time doing the things I like. And I know I'm not alone. It's gotten better since I destroyed a bunch of my hobbies--like the suckers that grow at the base of a tree, they never got big and they siphoned off energy that could be better spent elsewhere. Tonight I spent a lot of time thinking about how I could design amazing great band posters and how fulfilling that would be, which, yeah, it would be great, but also, totally not necessary to my life in anyway. Gone.

A short list of things I like to do:

  • Dance in my living room
  • Write
  • Watch tv shows
  • Read good books
  • Stretch
  • Walk in nature
  • Look at plants or clouds or other natural things
  • Play board games (mostly)
  • Driving and listening to music
  • Painting my nails
  • Taking a bath
  • Trying new makeup techniques
  • Dressing up

One thing I notice is that except for board games, which only merits a "mostly", I don't need the active participation of anybody for the rest of these activities. Maybe I can make a list of things I like that other people are usually present for?

  • Hanging out with my favorite people
  • Scuba diving
  • Dancing in public
  • Singing karaoke
  • Taking a dance class or similar physical group activity (karate)

Being a blissfully unproductive hermit sounds pretty great, but it does prevent me from connecting with other human beings which I'm pretty sure is important. I'm also afraid I will disappear if I only do these quiet things in my home, away from people. I already feel like I'm dissolving into the fabric of a city where I am unknown. What happens if I actually disappear? What if no one knows who I am or what I'm doing or why?

Probably it's fair to say that I simply have a narrow understanding of what I like and that actually I like many more things than you see here.

Let's take a sort of nutritional view on the subject. There are probably component parts of all activities that we all crave, at least a tiny bit, right?

  • Moving our bodies
  • Consuming art in some form
  • Being with people
  • Being alone
  • Being productive
  • Being aimless
  • Resting
  • Working
  • Creating art in some form
  • Learning
  • Practicing

I hate to bring up the b-word but maybe it's about having a little of everything. I don't know, it's not a very well-developed theory. My next idea of course I want to make fancy pie charts in my ridiculous journal--for each activity, how much of each vitamin does it provide? Am I ODing on alone time or consumption time or creation time, or....?

I promised myself I'd be done before midnight, so we'll have to leave this here.

Hey! It would be useful to know what you're interested in. So vote for what you like!