Stop calling yourself lazy.
You are not lazy.
You don't prioritize That Thing you're beating yourself up over. I don't care why. You work your ass off at stuff, just not at That Thing you feel guilty about not doing.
And that's fine. You are not lazy
Stop calling yourself lazy. Stop thinking of yourself as lazy. Unless you've reclaimed lazy, and are a power-leisure type, you probably think lazy = worthless, lesser, flawed.
It's okay to rest! It's okay to not do all the things!